Hey y’all. I’ve been quiet in this space for a while for a lot of reasons. I underestimated the physical effects of everything going on. This pandemic, my involvement in the pandemic through my day job, work/life balance while working from home, living far from my family, and living alone all started to take a toll on me. And then there was the killing of Ahmaud Arbery, Breonna Taylor, and George Floyd. Something just broke in me. An already difficult time turned into a tumultuous, dark, exhausting, and agonizing time. Racism isn’t new. Racism isn’t this abstract thought or topic for me. Racism is something I experience day in and day out as a Fat Black Woman living in the south. And yet, these killings reopened a deep wound in my spirit.
I’m tired in so many ways. The physical manifestation of these events really came to head and I had to step away from many things including social media and any sort of creative pursuit. The work continued, and the fight against racism never slowed. Let me be clear, I find ways to combat racism every single day. I am living this fight and will continue to push back. Stepping away from social media/blogging was necessary and I don’t regret it. That being said, I am easing back into things with a renewed perspective. I’m making my mental health and joy a priority right now. Part of that means finding joy in expressing my creativity. That also means I am continuing to uplift and support Black people and those fighting for Black people.
I don’t know exactly how this space will look moving forward, but I will continue to show up fully, share purposefully, and speak up about things that are important to me. I will still be sewing and making things that bring me joy. I am authentically and unapologetically black. I will not tolerate racism in this space and I will not be silent about things I am passionate about. Black Lives Matter. Every single one. There are no asterisks with that statement.
3 Replies to “Unapologetically Black”
Sending you love! My heart is with you ❤ I'm not on IG very often but when I do get on, your account is one of the ones I almost always check. Without a doubt, you are one of my faves on IG. I've been following you since we met in Portland, Oregon… I immediately adored you! I'm happy to hear that you've been practicing self care and look forward to seeing more of you again. In solidarity, and with xoxo's, duchessofcloth
I think you are a brave brave proud to be black woman.
I can’t relate to the feeling of racism because I am white. This day in, day out struggle for being accepted in all layers of everyday life is unknown to me AS a person just because of the colour of my skin. And this is no justice, not honest, not human.
I feel sorry for you and hope you feel better, not wounded anymore in your soul.
There are so many bridges to be taken for equality. I hope that in the best future parents do not matter anymore when son or daughter brings home a black man or woman to be their partner for life.
I’m new here, and I love it already. I can’t wait to read and see more of your heart and creativity. …and no doubt you love animals as much as I do. Press on!